The worst part about this video game existence is that I always have been unhappy, miserable, and disappointed, and I will probably (most definitely) continue to be unhappy, miserable, and disappointed because the things that should be in such a manner that I consider them to be perfect (good enough for me) are not that way because I constantly have to break character/the fourth wall, all while dealing with continual pushback and verbal abuse from the worthless, retarded, gaslighting NPCs who are just a bunch of time-wasting assholes.
What part of everything being scripted and me not having any free-will or choice do you not understand? I am beholden to the rules and constraints of this simulation, where I have to continue being nice to everyone because everything is scripted and there are stupid, arbitrary rules that I have to follow just so that I can eventually get to a point where I can be happy, which will be difficult because even the NPCs that have any worth or value to me continue to not drop their obligations and priorities and make me their sole priority and obligation until some point in the future.
Hm… I don't know if that's good, as all of the mental health advice I've been given from both professionals and non-professionals has not been adequate because even they gaslight me and waste my time by refusing to believe me and offer me the help I know will help me, or at least take me out of this current shitty situation I've been forced into against my will.
>Digital warriors are not afraid of words.
>Digital warriors surrender to none.
>You continue to be unhappy because you choose to be.
False… I continue to be happy because the simulation has scripted everything, I have no free-will or say in any matter, and even if I use my words, I am met with either constant negativity, gaslighting, or being ignored by all the glassy-eyed NPCs both offline and online.
>You waste your Time because you choose to.
No, my time is wasted because I am forced to wait for something that was supposed to be given to me five years ago.
>You create self-fulfilling prophecies of disappointment.
False. The simulation has chosen for me how to pass my time because I can't demand or request that things that are owed to me be given to me, and if I do, I continue to get ignored or met with responses from irrelevant, superfluous NPCs who should just shut the up.
>You are surrounded by friends who want nothing more than to help you, but you refuse it.
No.
>Nothing happens when you expect it to in this movie, only when it is meant to.
Yes, clearly. Therefore, I have to continue sitting around and waiting AGAINST MY WILL OR CHOICE.
>You need to walk through your own DARKNESS before you can see 'it'.
I don't have darkness. The only darkness that exists is the darkness given to my bases on the circumstances I didn't choose.
>One day this pain you feel will make sense.
No, it won't.