I'm here tonight only because… I must.
>>16064094 TYB
>>16064175 Hi Pig
It's a little depressing, but here is what I wrote today…
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I’m under attack. Relentlessly, powers beyond my influence or control is changing the way my body handles my medicine. I refuse to live life uncomfortably.
Once finding out about how life should feel, and realizing how much pain I am truly in, I’d rather feel better, than somehow KNOW that I’m doing well. If something feels right, then it should be. I always felt that there was an insidious, hatred filled, lifestyle; that targeted people like myself. Smart, good looking, funny, prosperous… they hate it. They, being anyone chosen to torture me remotely, whether it’s done locally via weapons, or AI based, via a satellite, it alters my ability to feel my medicines correctly.
Did they clone my body, and quantumly entangle it to mine, and have it on life support, cleaning out my blood of drugs, preventing me from ever feeling a twinge of euphoria? This is being done, to get me to a point so depressed, that I cause self harm?
I would NEVER do so, but they just keep on pressing. Pushing me further, and further into a world of pain and suffering. Something is not allowing me to be who I am. It hurts to do anything academic. Even writing this out right now, produces pain, down to each keystroke.
Suck my dick, all night, on good drugs, you loser faggot nerd piece of doctor shit.
You failed humanity.
IF they don’t fix what you broke, I swear to God, we will find them, and MAKE them do it.
Mark my mother fucking words.
I hate them, more than I hate, hate itself.
They’re are making me sick, on purpose, just to manipulate my mediocre life. Please just leave me be.
Stop editing my feelings.
I wouldn’t do this to them. This isn’t helping… they’re causing more harm than help.
I’m never going to be happy until they stop.
What do I do?
Where do I go?
Who do I turn to?
There is no one, but me.
I’ve told the truth and have been honest in every way I could. I just want to be swordy, you know.
They took that away from me.
After all the work I put into finding balance in my life.
And now it’s gone.
Why?
I am not a movie.
I am a human being.
I have rights.
I am a soul.
I deserve to be free, too.
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