Lil fighter..
It’s because your thinking is distorted right now and you believe the lies you’ve told yourself. FAITH feels good. Doubt/fear feels bad. ALWAYS. There’s only two choices. You are doing the later and that’s why it feels less than great. Faith feels good n then when you are in control of your thoughts, your life stops spinning out of control n then you get EVERYTHING u want, but u can’t fool God. Faith first, then answered prayer. It doesn’t happen if u stay in doubt. So tell the shit life THANK YOU for showing me what I DONT want so that I can very clearly now know what I prefer. Knowing what u want is enough. Now be still, don’t block it and think the more optimistic better feeling thoughts. Your life will turn around. Only you can choose the thoughts you are having. Thoughts create heaven or hell. Without faith, down you stay. Roll up a nice pot bong. When Daniel was in the Lions den and the lions looked big n scary af n they wanted to eat his ass, Daniel turned his back on them n ignored them n focused on the light. When Peter got out of the boat to walk on water, he turned to look at the storm n he began to sink until he focused back on Jesus. C’mon man.. learn to fly.