Pretty sure all the shit that's happened to me will cost me my sanity. It is getting ridiculous how low I feel, like slime, thinking I had anything to do with any of anything.

Nothing is true, marriages, politics, life. Not a shred of truth to be found in anyone anymore, everyone lies even me.

How could I have explained away all the shit that's happened to me if I didn't lie. God did this, god did that. I'd sound crazy.

Wake me up and be on my side, have my back. Make sure I have no competition in my market. don't you think I've hurt enough? you need more hurt?

get this show on the road, my feelings matter dammit.