Autist, birthdate: 11/22/1989(1+1+2+2+1+9+8+9=33)
I was raised in a family, where both of my parents neglected me and worse. My heart chakra is closed and I am terribly, terribly lonely. I don't know where to begin healing myself.
I have Heyoka/Pain-Eater/Two-Spirit energy as well. The Sacred Fools energy runs deep in my veins. It intimidates me, because my entire life I've been among the refuse, the discarded parts of our society. Now, after an 8 month long journey, here I am.
I just want to heal, I want to let go of this hurt, I want to know what Love feels like, acceptance, comradery. I'm so sick and tired of being alone, of being judged for my differences, of not being understood, of not understanding myself. What am I?