The alignment has started and they have left. Now it's only the men. Why was Cancun chosen? Is it because of its proximity to underground locations? Carlsbad Caverns, memories of that are creeping back. Lonely, worried, stressed all nonproductive feelings. How can I get productive? 40 Days and nights in the desert carrying a bible, after 40 years of having it on me constantly…How many people have carried a bible with them, without fail, for 43 years? How many people have carried a bible into 55+ countries around the world? My life has been predetermined, my body has changed into His. The whole being a teacher at my church at thirteen? the water flowing from my belly? my leg scars, which happen to look like spike holes? My arms which have the scars of nails? The scars on my forehead? my current elevation? Still the significant other doesn't see the connection. Yet, here I sit, waiting on something that hasn't happened. Knowing more than I know isn't helping me. The whole spousal thing. I know who I am. but it seems who I am and 4 bucks will by me coffee at Starbucks. I'd much rather be there with you right now than worry for the next 43 days about what my life will be like on the 44th. Have someone reach out to my son and I. Now is a great time, like right now.

The world is being forced into a corner, the world needs to feel united as a whole. That's what I can do, that's what I was born to do. Unite the world in love and let it flourish until corruption isn't even a word anymore.

Thinking about drinking again, might as well go out with a smile on my face not giving a shit about anything.