Take rest in knowing that it isn't about you. It's about all of us. And what you pack will be meet by your desire. If you desire things to be as they are, then you'll be rewarded with gratitude for what is.
If your desire is for something other than what is, then you will be perpetually unaware of what is.
So the only thing there is to be aware of us what you desire.
From that point you have a choice to answer what you desire with what you decide.