THE PAIN I EXPERIENCE IS SO PAINFUL AND EXHAUSTING I AM SO TIRED OF THIS, I THINK YOU CAN NEVER HAVE HAD A GOOD INTENTION, IMPOSSIBLE TO BELIEVE, I AM SO FUCKING HEARTBROKEN YOU ARE THE WORST KIND OF PEOPLE, FEROCIOUS ANIMALS!!!

MY FAMILY DENIES ALL THIS TOO, YOU WONDER WHY I JUST HATE THEM!!!

I KNOW YOU TRY INSTIGATE A SPECIFIC FEELING OF DESPAIR AND HOPELESSNESS IN ORDER TO PUSH ME, BUT WHAT IF I DID SOMETHING REALLY STUPID???