Today my Dad passed away.

Kinda numb. We hadn’t talked in over 10 years. He had his second wife, always took her side… and we ( his kids) had her mean and nasty side. Always. It led to big fights, the last one being 10+ years ago. His siblings have written us kids off-haven’t spoken to us either. Stepmother has totally trashed us to them.

Now I’m in a predicament : do I travel from FL to NY for the memorial? ( and be gigged for showing up where I’m obviously not wanted?) or stay home and pray for him from here ( and be giggedfor not showing up?) I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.

If I go, it’s for my closure.

If I don’t go, they’ll hate me forever. ( I can live with that.) But can I live with myself for not going? I was raised better than that.

What to do?

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