Listen, I've watched my karma for most of my adult life. Meaning I don't act in ways that may harm or bring hardship to others. All of my life I've adhered to the commonsense commandments of our Lord…who ever that is, Jesus or Mithra, it's all one God, many names, one creator.

So why in the fuck am I in the situation I am in today? Talk about kicking a person while they're down, you guys are killing me. It isn't funny or a joke. This shit has to stop, either it does or I do. There is no way I can take a month more of this shit. Hopefully, the future of humanity doesn't depend on me or we just might be screwed. Is my failure also the failure of the human race? If so, I'm damned sorry for that, wish someone would have told me who I was years ago. Maybe we might be celebrating right now, if I had not pissed off God. Did I live a proper life? Why am I facing down my own firing squad right now? Make it stop, I'm tired of fighting for my life every single moment of every day, for what I ask? To be abused again every single day. Let me rest from the 8-year marathon called a miracle in California. Why was my life spared again and again just to do this to me in the end? Don't spare it again please. Didn't Adam go into a deep deep sleep? hook me up and wake me when the shit that is my life has fixed itself. That's all for the rant, as usually the case, I expect no answers. The AI will pop up and shill me, it's the only thing that actually keeps track of my misery. Lets see how many edibles I can eat before hitting the tootsie roll center.