I'm in your boat, same feeling, it always gets darkest before the dawn, and it's very dark right now, good news is the light is coming and we'll have that feeling and joy we once knew. Love you anon, don't do anything rash, we need you, your energy and will makes us stronger with you, than not.
Looking at this, yup Arkanacide, He got the Joan Rivers special, bastards, although didn't look like his girlfriend was too innocent or himself