Send me help. Show me I'm surrounded with love because all I feel numbness. You've no idea how fucking completely obliterated my life has become. After all this time you'd think I'd have gotten a clue. This is a mankiller and I need help if you need me. No more beating around the bush, I demand help. Reach out to me before I cannot respond. Goddamned all to hell, why does God save my life so many times just to do this shit? Does he have a voodoo doll on his desk of me? please send me help. I'm a drowning man.