All bitching aside, thank you for protecting me for all these years. Had it not been for your help, I'd be homeless and dead. Not an exaggeration and you know it. Thank you. I've not lost faith, just scared to death of what lies ahead. That feeling I've felt before is looming large over me, and I'd rather never feel it again. The sun is about to do its thing, that scares me less than the other thing. Without love, what is worth the fight??