I AM NOT GOING TO PUT MY GIRL TO REST, IN FACT SHE BE THE ONLY THOUGHT I ALLOW IN MY MIND, THE OTHER CHAOS I JUST SHARE HERE WITH YOU TOO, BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY THING YOU EXPECTED, ONLY I AM NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING TO BETTER MYSELF AND I KNOW THIS IS MERELY DUE TO BEING IN THE WRONG PLACE, WHICH IS SUCH A STUPID FACT!!!