Father, I have looked to see what it is you want me to do. My role in all this is fading quickly and I feel I’ve let you all down, esp you dad. My entire life I have carried around a Bible nonstop 24/7/365 all in vain. Yes you have saved my life father, but I ask was that a mistake as well? If I am to be happy I need more information from you so please give me this one break and help. I want off this rock. Sorry if I fucked things up. My intentions were good.