I'm not retreating, I'm asking questions
I REALLY DO HAVE A GENUINE DECEASE THAT HAD FAR REACHING CONSEQUENCES IN MY LIFE AND I FOUND OUT ABOUT THAT BEFORE I EVEN DID THE LANGUAGE THING AND IT HAS BEEN HORRIBLE ALL THE WAY, FINALLY I KNOW VERY WELL WHAT IS GOING WRONG INSIDE MY BODY AND THE EFFECT THAT ALL HAD ON MY BEHAVIOR AND CHOICES ARE VERY BAD IN MY EXPERIENCE. IGNORING MY CONDITION IS THE BIG MISTAKE HERE THAT ANGERS ME MOST!!!