IF ONLY THESE HIDDEN HANDS HAD A FUCKING BRAIN, THEY REALLY DON'T AND THEY HAVE BEEN SO DAMN STUPID FOR PROMOTING THIS IDEA OF LIVING IN THESE 'HOUSING' FOR THE PAST FIVE YEARS, AN IDEA THAT DID NOT CAME ORGANICALLY INTO MY MIND BUT WAS PROMOTED MANY YEARS IN ADVANCE, AND NO I HAVE FINALLY FOUND OUT BY MYSELF THAT I HAVE A CONDITION WHICH DOES NOT ALLOW ME TO LIVE LIKE THIS AND I SIMPLY CANNOT SUSTAIN MYSELF, IT MIGHT HAVE SEEM LIKE THAT BUT DON'T FORGET I AM FIVE YEARS IN THIS DISASTER AND I AM SO DONE AND SO VERY TIRED, YOU MIGHT AS WELL FORGET ABOUT THE ENTIRE IDEA AT THIS POINT FOR I MIGHT JUST ONLY EVER LOOK MINE GIRL INTO HER EYES AND NOBODY ELSE, NOT EVEN MY FAMILY!!!