>>1697191
Never tried MXE but I could get Ketamine relatively easily in Mexico.
I liked Ketamine a couple of times, and enjoy 3-MeO-PCP as its own, like a lucid drunkeness.
Flub is very tricky, I do 150ug to come down from a strong trip or stim session when I do need to sleep deep, I plan ahead and lay in bed before it hits, I wake up when it ends, usually 18 hours later in the middle of the next afternoon. It is super hypnotic so you could end up doing activities in a black out like you did, I do not like to risk that, I am very strict with it. It is almost Rohypnol without the euphoria and loooonger lasting.
I did u-47700 for 2 years daily, and went through hell on earth, full agony for 2 days, then 3 months of depression. Stims helped motivation wise, but I was essentially anhedonic.
Now I have been 6 months without U4 and feel amazing, but I did kratom to ease withdrawals so I have been off opiates for 4 months really.
I do suffer chronic pain and do Lyrica and Tramadol in rotation, medium doses, they are shit to feel comfy and good, but they curve the pain a lot, almost what I need.
I plan on going to a poppy field to work as a gum collector and do opium at ease, no pain, live there and be a humble farmer and a writer.
I am sorry for your horrible process, I never did long lasting opiates, so I do not know about weeks or months of acute withdrawals.
I pray to God to help you go through this and let you learn a lot about life and yourself in the process so you come out stronger and a better human
I love you man, you are not alone.
It is รผber trite, but:
This is not reality, it is a chemical war in your brain, do not take important decisions now, do not fight, remember the depression and hate are chemical and not the real you, be stoic and exercise MIND OVER MATTER.
Learn to smile and be cynical and playful in the middle of the fire, it will help you later to do business and other things hiding your real emotions.
I LOVE YOU MAN, THIS WILL PASS, I SWEAR IT ENDS SOONER THAN LATER AND YOU WILL LOVE BEING SOBER
NO HOMO