Anon, go take a shower with the coldest water you can
This will flood your body with adrenaline and activate primal survival urges
Then, go to the pharmacy and get Kalium salts.
They come in small bottles mixed with oils
73% of depression is caused by chemical imbalance and difficult communication between the cerebrum and the cerebellum
The salts will fix this
They are also one of the active ingredients in Ivermectin
I used to have bad thoughts often, this will fix it