I DON'T THINK I GET TO SEE ALL THESE THINGS I GREATLY IGNORE BECAUSE I AM OUT OF TOUCH WITH GOD, IF YOU ASK ME YOU ARE ALL OUT OF TOUCH WITH GOD HERE IGNORING MY CALLS FOR HELP AND WILLINGLY AND KNOWINGLY LEAVING ME IN THIS VERY PAINFUL SITUATION WHICH IS VERY DIFFICULT TO MOVE AWAY FROM BY MYSELF AND I NEED FULL ASSISTANCE!!!