I understand your frustration, anon, but you must be a frog to understand my pic.
Having fear ?
–Does logic say you have nothing to lose and everything to gain, yet you still deal with the symptoms of fear ?
Look no further.
Watch 'Full Metal Jacket' while high at leastthreetimes. Remember, the purpose of watching the movie is to get rid of fear. It's hypnosis.
Report back afterwards.