Why do people lie? Why do they betray trust? Why do they act in ways that defy comprehension? Are humans, when you really break it down to the basic elements, really evil inside?
It seems to me if we didn't have all the trappings of evil, humans would turn out to be loving. The evil we are fighting has been doing this to humanity since humanity began. We must end their cycle. Enough lies, heartache, and grief, I'm out until the world wakes, which at this rate, will be too late.
Question we all need to be asking is what happened to the other civilizations, Gobekli Tepe, Mayan, Angkor Watt, all wiped off the face of the earth, probably right before the flood hit them. The earth goes through this change, every 6500 years with a grand event, complete pole reversal, occurring every 12,500 years or so. We are late for both.
This old man has had enough for two lifetimes of pain, but we all have our crosses to bear, mine almost broke me. After eight years I'm healthier than ever, stronger physically and an emotional wreck. Body, mind and soul must be in sync.
Who ever they are interrupting my life, I'd wish they'd stop. Being put through judgment before death it seems I am. Really was I this bad of a person? It doesn't matter now, what's done is done. How do I become who I was meant to be? What barrier don't I see? Frustrated. And yes, these rants will go on, it's my therapy. No one on this earth understands except three people, and two of those people are gone. Those I depended on let me down.
Cheer me up please.