>Think about it. Think about your past & the bad things you've done that you never acknowledged. Start there.
OKAY THOUGHT ABOUT IT. STOP ABOUT IT, BECAUSE IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PAIN I AM EXPERIENCING BEFORE AND AFTER I KNEW ABOUT ALL THIS, IT IS UNFAIR TO LEAVE ME IN THIS MUCH PHYSICAL PAIN AND ASSUME IT'S NEEDED FOR SOMETHING BAD I DID IN THE PAST, BUT IT'S VERY EASY BECAUSE MANY THINGS WERE NOT ORGANIC TO BEGIN WITH, SO IT DOES NOT MATTER TO ME!!!