I'll say this, as someone who is involved in some seriously spoopy stuff, right now:
Maintain situational awareness and push forward. I can assure you, I am either a part of something just as, if not bigger… Or the illuminati of mensa's drama club who wants to troll me with over a decade of fuckery… Which would be a serious complement, honestly.
Point is … If you feel called to something, TRUST YOURSELF and push forward. Try not to be stupid or careless, but keep moving.
My father always had a saying: "God does not call the equipped, God equips the called." Whether it is the journey of a million miles or the turn into the lion's den faith and the raw willingness to be absurd can achieve things thought impossible.
You're going to do what it is you came to do. You're going to face whatever challenges lay ahead, and you are going to win (until you're tired of winning, and then you're going to win some more).
In returning and pushing forward, I found I was right-enough about things I had absolutely no reason to be right about. So, damn the clownpedoes!