Me too fren.
But I know why. At least I think I do.
Because none of us belong here.
This world is not how it was originally intended.
It is broken. We are broken.
This is not "home".
We are in a way, in temporary exile.
I'm not talking about anything ET or other worldly.
The heavens is where we are headed at the end of our lives, or if lucky and everything goes to shit in a hurry, sooner.
Otherwise life has no productive purpose, or meaning.