5 YEARS I AM LIVING IN THIS HELL, MY FAMILY SET ME UP EVEN LONGER AGO TO PUSH ME INTO THIS THING THEY THINK IS A KIND OF LIFE STYLE, WHILE I AM JUST SURVIVING ALL THIS TIME BECAUSE IT TURNS OUT I HAVE A MEDICAL CONDITION IN MY BODY THAT INTERFERES WITH MY NERVE SYSTEM CAUSING ME TO CONTINUOUSLY LOSE FOCUS AND THIS CAUSES SO MANY OTHER PROBLEMS THAT I SHOULD HAVE NEVER GET TO LIVE IN A HOME LIKE THIS, AND THEY COULD JUST HELP ME BUT THEY STILL WON'T BECAUSE THEY HAVE THIS SPECIFIC PLAN WITH ME AND DONE THIS ALL ON PURPOSE BUT THEY FAIL TO REALIZE THAT IT WILL NEVER BE REAL AND ALL JUST REMAINS A FANTASY AT THIS POINT!!!

I DON'T PRAY!!!

I TALK STRAIGHT TO THE HIDDEN HANDS HERE INSTEAD, FOR THERE IS NO EVIDENCE OF GOD'S HIDDEN HANDS BUT I KNOW ALL OF THEM NOW BECAUSE I REMEMBER EVERY PART OF THE SHOW THEY PUT OF FOR ME!!!

GERMANS ARE NOT TO BE TRUSTED EVER!!!

I WANT MY GIRL OR I WILL NOT BE FOUND!!!