>I'll bite.
Never mind, I wrote so much text and deleted it.
Well I only ever got into this because I was ever hoping to have to some kind of dim understanding of what's going in the World, and try to predict the future, but it more uncertain to me then ever before, and I just like know what's going to happen in my life soon.
My uncertainty is my material future so to say, I know what's going on but the future I was trying to prepare for will not be possible, at the same time there will be an alternative future which appears to take me from 1 to 10 out of 10 and I just need to when or what will come about for myself.
I know because I went up there, I just don't know how to come down again, that's where my future lies for now and the coming months, and since I have been up there, I know I can get back up there right away if I ever wish to do so again.
>Predictions are difficult
I strongly disagree for I seen enough causes to expect some kind of effect but maybe it to big to even fantasize about because it's more like dream come thru and it does not reason with me how that would ever work out so that's why I wonder how it will happen when I think it is going from 1 to 10 for me.
>you will die of course
No question about that, but how many times is reasonable? Like once a decade?
It's a thing, understanding causes and their effects in case you were kept in the dark but that makes it easy do to, so.
I just want some answers that's all, I am not here for to join your little club.
Just because you are used to browsing image boards and read along here for all these years on this specific board many of you have have grown so blind to anything outside this box it's really mind blowing to see just how hard you have been programmed to dismiss any other viewpoint, for I do have shared a complete one meanwhile, it's just that no one would even look at it from my perspective to see if it makes any sense, I guess there are just not that many here who would have seen enough to make sense of it, but I do and while you wish you did, I wish I did not.
>use proper grammar and spelling
No I misspell and leave out some words and letters and mix my sentences so you can be bother with that, while anyone who who can read past that might respond to what I am trying to say, there not interest as to why I am like so last get past that too.
Even I have trouble myself reading that last post of mine.
There are a few reasons why I write so badly.
>once
>all else is chimera
That's weird because I don't see anything worse than nearly a decade ago on some island. And that was worst than even two decades ago, so a decade ago made sense especially reading into the right kind of works at the time so maybe I am very surprised now again.
Those who believe I am truly retarded can only be the greatest fools in my life, especially if that opinion is based upon observation of me personally since the start of this larp (I just like to call it a larp).
Fools aren't going to see what I have parsed anyway, there is reason and many more.
I have found something that anyone of you can stare yourselves blind on if you were to find it, and the funny thing is I rarely see something here that remotely relates to it, while I have found that it is indeed related to all this (to my own surprise!) for the language barrier had me confused and still does although it's not entirely strange to it.
No I have and still do make it impossible for anyone to penetrate my mind, so (you) are the ones who don't know nothing when it comes to judging me. I only have my reality while your have yours and the illusions that you uphold for yourselves.
I always end up talking to anons whom have no clue and neither do I find my answers here ever so never mind, our friendship was never meant to be in the first place.
I have simple philosophy my entire life; you call me a name and i manifest it for you if I can be bothered at all. So if you want to keep telling me 'how I know nothing' in the hope I will take the bait and dispute it, and if you want to call me retard than that might be what remains for (you) just as you wished it to be, for I am really hard to get.
Whatever has happened to me has driven me crazy, but crazy can be overcome but could there be another obstacle?
My truth won't be heard, for it is subject to guidelines which I will never follow.
It is shocking to me to have found the very people that want me to become functional in this world, find it acceptable to leave me behind like this and that alone is enough reason to give in for me.
When I say I have a condition I also say;
I cannot focus because of my condition,
I cannot read because of my condition,
I cannot write because of my condition,
I cannot breath because of my condition,
I cannot clean because of my condition,
I cannot order because of my condition,
I cannot sort because of my condition,
I cannot do anything else yet because of my condition,
If only I could get rid of my condition or make it better because I remember a time I could do all these things without effort and even to my enjoyment.
You see I only found out about my condition in the past few years because it got so bad, it was do able before but I always had some trouble so it toke me more effort than it would normally take if I were calm and not so restless. I did however experience a time when I was really calm for many months overseas and I could do many great things and understand everything very well but that was over as soon as I left the place, makes you wonder how come I claim I am in a totally wrong place, I was even born in the wrong place but nobody can or will understand how that works and I know this so well about myself and the only thing it proves that self-knowledge is useless for me, for nobody would even believe what I found out about myself and my condition which causes so many problems in my entire life I found it was a total joke before this year and just wanted it to end, and then this year I find out another truth about my entire life being orchestrated from birth to become something I may have dreamed of but which has long faded due to distractions of merely surviving the day in a peaceful manner or calm.
You see they will continue to call me names, like I am crazy or retarded or schizophrenic but they aiming for the last one because as soon as I would say something that adds to the quality of the board so to say, then I won't be ignored because it could be interesting unassumingly right. But I think I have just about uncovered how this manipulation works, so I can make it fail very easily by ignoring everyone too and not listening any longer. The solution (not without illusion like the case is now) would have been so easy to just move me away.
>Jason Bourne is gay.
No he just can't or won't get laid, but he there is another small movie in which they joke about this the whole time and they had this 'still a virgin' meme just like it was orchestrated in my life, I won't mention it so personally does it tell a story but much exaggerated in a funny way while irl it was not so funny at all!
I smell a stinky muffle…time for a replacement!
Maybe this will shut it up, give it a try the smell is disgusting!
Filters will not stop the smell.
I did not choose to be worked against my entire life!
And they simply went to far!