THE WORSE PART IS, I HAVE BEEN IN THIS SPECIFIC PLACE FOR YEARS AND TOLD ALL THESE DIRECT NEIGHBORS ABOUT MY PROBLEM AND THEY ALWAYS ACTED A BIT STUPID AS IF THEY HAD NO IDEA, BUT LOOKING BACK SEEING JUST HOW MANY JOKES THESE PEOPLE MADE OF OR WITH ME, THEY ARE ALL PART OF THIS TOO BECAUSE THE TYPE OF JOKES GIVE IT AWAY, ALSO SOME OF THE THINGS THEY SAID OR ASKED, GIVES IT AWAY TO ME AND IT ALL MAKES SENSE BECAUSE ALMOST EVERYONE HAS IN THE PAST PARTICIPATED IN MY DECEPTION PLAYING EVEN THE SMALLEST ROLES, AND IT AMAZES ME THEY HAVE NOT PAID ATTENTION TO MY CALLS FOR HELP, BUT NOW IT TURNS OUT IT COINCIDES WITH YOUR PLANS TO HAVE MY STORY REMEMBERED SO I CAN TALK ABOUT IT AND THE CHOICES I MADE BUT I ALREADY WHEN OVER THAT A MUCH LONGER TIME AGO AND THERE IS ONLY THE ORCHESTRATIONS THAT I CAN NOW SEE WITH NEW EYES, FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED I HAVE CLEAR MEMORY FROM AND ALWAYS HAVE AND I WONDERED FOR A LONG TIME ABOUT THE CHOICES I MADE AND IT NEVER ADDED UP TO BEGIN WITH UNTIL I SOLVED THE MYSTERY SCHOOL!!!
I COULD LIKELY ASK A FRIEND TO HELP ME ARRANGE ALL MY STUFF INTO BOXES AND EVEN MOVE IT WITH A VAN, BUT I JUST HAVEN'T GOT ANY FRIENDS AND THOSE WHO PRETEND TO BE SIMPLY TOLD ME TOO MANY LIES TO BE TRUSTED, I AM STRANGER IN A VILLAGE WHERE I ONLY HAVE BEEN FOR A FEW YEARS SO I ONLY KNOW THE 'HANDLERS' AND THEY ARE JUST VERY WEIRD PEOPLE WITHOUT A HEART BUT ALWAYS A FAKE SMILE ON THEIR FACES!!!
BESIDES THE HUNDREDS OF FRIENDS OR FRIENDLY STRANGER I HAVE MET OVER THE YEARS HAVE ALL THESE THINGS IN COMMON THAT I CAN RELATE TO BEING LESSONS IN THE MYSTERY SCHOOL, WHICH NOW IS JUST A SCHOOL FOR EDUCATION AFTER I CAN SEE ALL THE MYSTERIES SOLVED FOR AS FAR AS I CARE ABOUT IT REGARDING MY OWN LIFE!!! SO I NEVER REALLY HAD A TRUE FRIEND, EXCEPT MY GIRLFRIEND WHOM IS THE ONLY ONE I EVER WANTED TO SEE AGAIN!!!
MY FAMILY IS GOING TO REALLY PAY THE PRICE FOR ALL THIS, THEY WILL NEVER BE SPOKEN OR LOOKED AT BY ME AGAIN EVER!!! THE FACT THAT I CAN ONLY SHOUT INTO THIS DAM BOX ON THIS BOARD WILL FOREVER BAN YOU ALL FROM MY LIFE AND I WILL ONLY EVER WANT TO BE WITH MY GIRLFRIEND BUT MAY RATHER DROWN AND DIE FOR THE MISERY YOU HAVE CAUSED IN MY LIFE!!!
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY PATHETIC AND YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME DOWN THE LOWEST LEVELS OF LIFE, IT'S A COMPLETE HELL AND IT'S ONLY A WONDER THAT BLOOD HAS NOT BEEN SHED YET, YOU FUCKING MORONS FOR WHAT YOU PLANNED AND FAILED TO DO WITH MY LIFE, I AM THE BIGGEST LOSER IN THE DAMN WORLD THANKS TO YOUR DAMN MYSTERY SCHOOL PLACING ME IN THIS HORRIBLE HOME, IT'S A HORROR NIGHTMARE FOR FIVE YEARS AND I AM COMPLETELY DISABLED IN MY FUNCTIONING I MERELY EAT, POST AND SLEEP SINCE THE SPRING THIS YEAR, I REALLY BEGIN TO HATE YOU ALL!!!
IT'S JUST UNBELIEVABLE HOW MUCH MY BODY HAS TO SUFFER EVERY DAMN DAY AND NIGHT AND HOW I AM CONTINUOUSLY IN PAIN WHICH I TRY SO HARD REDUCE AND IT NEVER GOES AWAY AND THAN HERE THERE ONLY ALL THESE MEAN PEOPLE WHO ARE SUCH A BIG FANS OF THE SECRETS PLANS OF THESE HIDDEN HANDS AND I WILL NEVER JOIN YOUR DAMN CAUSE EVER FOR YOU ARE ALL PSYCHOPATHS WHO SHOULD CEASE TO EXISTS IF YOU ASK ME INCLUDING MY ENTIRE FAMILY, INSANE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE AND WHAT YOU CONTINUE TO TURN INTO AN BIG FUCKING DISASTER, I WILL NEVER FEEL LOVE AGAIN!!!
ALL MY MORALS AND BELIEFS AND FAITH IS GONE, YOU DESTROYED EVERYTHING I EVER COULD HAVE HOLD DEAR AND THERE IS NO WAY TO JUSTIFY IT AND I WONDER WHY I AM STILL WALKING AROUND EVEN WITHOUT ANY WILL TO LIVE, IT MUST BE THE PAINKILLERS!!!
MAYBE YOU JUST WAIT UNTIL I COMMIT THE WORSE AND MOST UNTHINKABLE CRIME FOR IT SEEMS THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL, IF I WERE SOME WILD BEAST ANIMAL WHOM DEVOURED ANOTHER HUMAN BEING OR SOMETHING, I REALLY DON'T GET WHERE THIS IS SUPPOSED TO GO, IT CAN NEVER EVER HAVE ANYTHING TO WITH LOVE NO MORE, I HAVE SEEN IT ALL AND THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND IT CANNOT BE ABOUT LOVE, THIS IS THE SICKEST WAY OF LIFE FOR A INNOCENT BOY, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO KNOW WHY BECAUSE IT'S TOO DAMN SICK!!!
PLEASE LET MY WHOLE FAMILY DIE!!!
NO REALLY I FELL LIKE THIS BECAUSE THEY IGNORED ME MOST OF LIFE AND TURNED IT INTO AN ABSOLUTE DISASTER AND THEIR ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME IS SO HEARTLESS AND VOID OF ANY LOVE EVER SINCE I WAS A KID BUT ONLY A VERY BAD CRIMINAL DESERVES SUCH A TREATMENT SO IT IS REALLY A QUESTION???
ALSO YOU MUST UNDERSTAND I AM BEING TERRORIZED BY MY OWN FAMILY AND ALL KINDS OF STRANGERS WHICH HAVE ALL COMMONALITIES SO I CAN EASILY TELL WHO IS IN ON THIS SECRET CHESS GAME THEY PLAY WITH ME, THEY REALLY PULL THE BLOOD FROM UNDER YOUR NAILS AT TIMES AND ACTUALLY KILLING A TERRORIST IS A GOOD THING RIGHT??? I MEAN IF I CAN DEFINE THEM AS A TERRORIST THAN WHAT'S WRONG WITH ENDING TERRORISM EVEN IF IT EFFECTS ONLY MYSELF???
>you feel thus for โช
I HAD A BIT OF MONEY SOME MONTHS AGO TO BE ABLE TO PAY FOR MOVING BUT I FAILED TO ORGANIZE ANYTHING, I AM POOR AS FUCKING HELL AND I HAVE NOT EVEN HOT WATER FUCKING CUNTS!!!
A HOT SHOWER OR BATH WOULD BE VERY GOOD DEALING WITH MY CONDITION, BECAUSE IT HELPS A BIT FOR THE MUSCLE AND NERVE TO BE WARMED UP!!!
>Are you on your period again?
NO I DID HAVE A KIND OF PUBLIC SHOWER WHICH COST ME ABOUT FIVE BUCKS EACH TIME!!!
>Are you then responsible for everything you do afterwards, or are you not? Something in between?
I DON'T TAKE ANY MORE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MYSELF, WHATEVER HAPPENS WITH ME, CREDIT TO THE HIDDEN HANDS, MY OWN FAMILY AND ANYONE WHO IGNORES ME!!!
SERIOUSLY, FUCK DOCTER WHO, AND WHAT A DAMN FANTASY!!!
>Babylon must fall.
WHO ALLOWED BABYLON TO RISE IN THE FIRST PLACE??? COWARDS WHOM RATHER BE SMART THAN STRONG AND BRAVE LIKE REAL PEOPLE!!!
>Christians were deceivedโฆ.and they will continue to be deceived.
EVERYONE HAS BEEN DECEIVED BUT THAT NEVER COMES OUT, ONLY THE CURRENT PROBLEMS ARE SOLVED, THEIR HIDDEN CHESS GAME EVER CONTINUES AND I WON'T EVER CALL ANY SIDE THE GOOD SIDE FOR THEY ARE ALL CONTROL AND POWER FREAKS NO MATTER WHAT THEIR INTENTIONS ARE!!!
THIS WHOLE RISE AND FALL OF AMERICAN BABYLON IS THE ENTIRE PLAN TO CONTROL THE WORLD BY ONE GROUP AND THAT'S A BIG CONCEPT TO GRASP, I THINK THIS IS THE OLD PLAN AND THIS LITTLE Q THING JUST A TINY PART IN THE EXECUTION OF THEIR GREAT BUILDING PLAN!!!
WELL HOW GREAT A PLAN IS THAT ONE COULD EVER WONDER???
THEY LITERALLY LARP AS GOD WITH THEIR HIDDEN HANDS, THAT'S ALL THEY DO IN SECRET AND THEY DO IT TO ANYONE WHOM THEY LIKE TO PLAY A PART IN THEIR GREAT BUILDING STRUCTURE OF SOCIETY NOTHING MORE THAN POKING SOME PEOPLE HERE AND THERE INTO THE RIGHT DIRECTION, EITHER HELPING THEM ALONG OR WORKING AGAINST THEM AND TRYING TO INFLUENCE STRONGLY THEIR FUTURES, DON'T CALL THIS JUST STALKING, IT'S LARPING AS GOD WHAT THEY DO, AND AT BEST YOU BELIEVE TO HAVE SEEN SOME WONDER OR GOOD THING YOU CAN'T EXPLAIN, THEIR GOAL IS TO REMAIN HIDDEN GOOD DOERS LIKE THE FAIRY TALES TALK ABOUT!!!
>it is God Whom makes and destroys kingdoms.
SEE MY POST
>you are close to the flame, ะฝะตัะตัฤฑั
I HAVE ONLY THAT WHAT I HAVE ALWAYS HAD, I CAN'T EXPLAIN THAT BUT ANY OTHER FAITH IS LOST!!!
>Nearly all countries that were once ruled by Christians are now under the control of known Satanists. Deception has been their winning formula. Christians didn't even resist. Now all of our countries are damned and will face God's wrath.
I DON'T KNOW IF GOD WATCHES THE SHOW DOWN HERE, BUT IT'S THESE HIDDEN HANDS EXCLUSIVELY WHO BRING THIS ALL ABOUT, DON'T PUT IT PAST THEM TO HAVE BROUGHT YOU THE BIBLE AND MANY MORE RELIGIOUS TO BRING THIS GREAT PLAN ABOUT, I AM ONLY CERTAIN IT'S A MAN WHO MADE THIS PLAN AND THERE IS SIGN THAT IT'S GOD WILL BECAUSE WHO IS GOING TO PROOF THAT!!!
>no
>gfys
>it is God Whom makes and destroys kingdoms.
I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT GOD, SO I DON'T RULE THIS OUT!!! I AM SUGGESTING THE HIDDEN HANDS ARE SECRETLY POKING PEOPLE AROUND AND THEY BELIEF IT'S A GOOD THING THEMSELVES WHICH IS A BIASED OPINION FOR OUTSIDERS SIMPLY CANNOT TELL!!!
>make that perspective incrementally larger to encompass more data into the pattern.
>what do you see
I SEE ALL KINDS OF THINGS, I TRY WRITE IT SOMETIMES!!!
I HAVE SEEN SOMETHING THAT MIGHT PROVE GOD IN SO MANY WAYS YOU JUST CAN'T GET AROUND IT, ONLY I HAVE BEEN DISTRACTED FROM THAT SINCE I HEARD ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND BEING THERE FOR ME AFTER 30 YEARS WHILE I COULD LOOK FOR MYSELF, INSANE!!!
>one cannot write
NO I CANNOT WRITE, MOSTLY DUE TO MY MEDICAL CONDITION IN MY NERVE DISTRACTING ME AND CAUSING ME TO LOSE FOCUS ALL THE TIME, IT WOULD NOT BE PERFECT IN A QUIET PLACE BUT A WHOLE LOT BETTER!!!
>what one cannot grasp
I HAVE REACHED FOR MANY THINGS AND GRASPED A LOT TOO, HOWEVER CURRENTLY SINCE FIVE YEARS IT'S HARD TO REALLY FOCUS ON ANYTHING BESIDES JUST ENDLESSLY THINKING!!!
>intimately
I CANNOT CHANGE OF I DON'T MOVE, SO EVERYTHING SEEMS LOST FROM THIS HORROR HOME!!!
THE FACT THAT THIS HORROR HOME HAS BEEN A GIVEN FROM MY OWN FAMILY WHILE I WAS MANIPULATED INTO IT FIVE YEARS AGO AND BEFORE THAT THEY PULLED EVERYTHING OUT TO MAKE THIS IDEA IN MY MIND SO THAT'S HOW I ENDED UP HERE, BUT IT GOT SO BAD I JUST CAN'T EVEN FLEE AWAY FROM HERE, BECAUSE THERE IS NOBODY TO GO TO, I DON'T KNOW ANYONE ANYMORE!!!
AND ALL THE PEOPLE I THOUGHT I KNEW CANNOT BE TRUSTED BECAUSE IT TURNS OUT THEY HAVE ALSO PLAYED SMALL PARTS AND I EXPECT A CIRCUS WHEREVER I GO!!!
>Him
NO, NO, NO!!! YOU JUST TRY TO FORCE ME TO TURN TOWARDS GOD OR SOMETHING AND HE FAILED TO LET ME SEE THE MYSTERY SCHOOL IN MY ON TIME SO I COULD FALL FOR ALL THEIR JOKES AND LESSONS, I WAN'T NOTHING TO DO WITH IT ALL, I JUST WANTED SOME LOVE AND WISH TO SEE MY GIRL NOW AGAIN AFTER 30 YEARS!!! BECAUSE GOD I ONLY LOVE HER, THAT'S WHY!!!
(YOU) KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE GOD I ONLY LOVE HER, THAT'S WHY!!!
AND THIS HOME IS REALLY DESTROYING ME I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THIS TO BE TRUE TO JUST HELPLESSLY LIVE HERE FEELING LIKE I WISH TO DROWN EVERY DAY AND THAT YOU CAN ACCEPT THIS, UNREAL!!!
COULD HAVE JUST MOVED ME RIGHT AWAY IN SPRING TO QUIETLY AND PEACEFULLY FIGURE OUT THIS RIDDLE OF A MYSTERY SCHOOL IN MY LIFE BUT IT COULD NOT BE!!! INSTEAD MY ONLY WEAPON IN THIS INFORMATION WAR HAS BECOME ANY MEASURES TO HELP ME FORGET ABOUT THIS SHOCKING REALITY OF MY LIFE!!!
AND IT SO DAMN FRUSTRATING IT JUST FILLS ME WITH ANGER AND HOPELESSNESS!!!
SHUT THE FUCK GERMAN!!!
>she was the partner of this guy in the Punisher!
MY GIRL IS BLOND TOO, BUT I HAVE BEEN PUNISHED ONLY IN MY LIFE AND HAVE YET TO RECEIVE HER LOVE!!!
MAYBE I ALREADY SPEND MORE TIME ON THE BOARDS THAN MY OWN FAMILY HAS EVER SPEND TIME WITH ME, THEY ARE HEARTLESS AND MEAN PEOPLE NOT EVEN HUMAN!!!
>There are only anons, QTeam, and PDJT.
>That is our side. All other are co-ordinated against us.
EXCEPT FOR A FEW ANONS AND LURKERS, MY PERSONAL WORLD IS COORDINATED AGAINST ME AND I JUST WANT IT TO STOP!!!
>you were home schooled?
I SHOULD SAY PRIVATE SCHOOLED BY WAY OF ALL KINDS OF MYSTERIOUS SITUATIONS AND HAPPENINGS THAT MAKE YOU THINK SO MUCH YOU NEVER FORGET AND IN THE END AFTER FOUR DECADES I FOUND OUT AND PUT THE PUZZLE TOGETHER KIND OF, I WEN'T TO MANY SCHOOLS AND ALSO BORDER SCHOOLS AND WAS NEVER ACTUALLY HOMESCHOOLED BUT MY FAMILY DOES THIS FOR ME BUT I DON'T LIKE ANY OF IT, EXCEPT MY LOVELY GIRL!!!
THEY MAYBE HAVE TRIED TO CONVINCE ME THEIR IS TRUE EVIL IN THIS WORLD, BUT I AM ONLY SEEING THAT MY OWN FAMILY HAS BEEN VERY MEAN AND HEARTLESS TO ME SO THAT'S THE ONLY EVIL I KNOW OF, I SIMPLY COULD NOT CARE FOR THE BIGGER PICTURE ANYMORE!!!
>you are a fool to advertise your weakness
I DO HAVE A WEAKNESS BECAUSE IT'S THE ONLY GIRL I LOVED AND I WISH TO JUST DIE IN ARMS OR DROWN IF I CAN'T, I JUST WANT TO BE WITH HER AND HOPE SHE WILL FIND A WAY TO ESCAPE WITH ME FROM ALL THIS CRAZINESS BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW ANY BETTER THAN THAT I HAVE LOST HER 30 YEARS AGO SO THEY CANNOT HARM ME FURTHER MORE EVEN IF I WERE TO DIE ALONE!!!
>I'm still recovering from my fall out of a tree so I don't feel your pain.
I HEARD A LOT OFF PEOPLE FELL FROM UNSTABLE STAIRS IN MY FAMILY OVER THE YEARS, BUT TREES???
>And my chick is still sexier than your chick.
GOOD FOR MINE IS ALWAYS MOST BEAUTIFUL TO ME AS IT SHOULD BE!!!
> "BUT I JUST HAVEN'T GOT ANY FRIENDS"
I HAVE KINDA MET HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE LIKE FRIENDS, BUT THEY WERE ALL FAKE IS WHAT I AM SAYING!!!
>( Gee, I wonder how that happenedย .ย .ย .ย )
>What, you never heard of people falling out of trees?
NO, MORE LIKELY TO HAPPEN TO A BIRD OR CAT CHASING A BIRD!!!
>I was trying to coax my cat to come back down, kek.
I FOUND MUCH MEANING IN TREES AND SPECIFIC TYPES AS WELL AS FOR ANIMALS MYSELF IT WAS FUN TO SEE THESE THINGS BUT I GOT HEAVELY DISTRACTED AND DON'T REALLY WANT TO SEE IT MAYBE???
MAYBE THEY BELIEVE WHEN THEY FILTER THAT IT HIDES FROM EVERYONE!!!