I REALLY MISS MY LOVELY SWEETHEART FOR SO LONG!!!
I WISH MY FAMILY AND THESE HIDDEN HANDS WOULD HAVE PUT AN EFFORT TO MOVE ME OUT OF THE PLACE THEY LURED ME INTO, I CANNOT UNDERSTAND THEIR BLINDNESS TO MY PAIN!!! IF ONLY I COULD PLEASE BE MOVED!!!
>ask God
NO, NO, NO!!! THEY ARE TRYING TO FORCE ME TO TURN TO GOD, AND SINCE I AM AGAINST EVERYTHING THEY EVERY DID WITH AND TO ME, I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH A CREATOR WHOM BLINDED ME FOR NEARLY FORTY YEARS, I WOULD RATHER CEASE TO EXISTS ALL TOGETHER THAN TO EVER DO THAT!!! WHY BECAUSE GOD I ONLY LOVE MY GIRL, THAT'S WHY!!!
THE TERROR IN WHICH I AM LIVING FOR FIVE YEARS THANKS TO MY OWN FAMILY HAS RUINED ANY CHANCE FOR ME TO EVER PARTICIPATE OR BE PART OF THE PLANS THEY HAVE LAID FOR MY DESTINY, THERE IS NO WAY I WILL EVER DO WHAT THEY DESIRE EVEN IF IT COST ME MY GIRL!!!
I AM EXPECTED TO SHARE THE KNOWLEDGE I GAINED IN THEIR HIDDEN MYSTERY SCHOOL AND WHEN I HAVE DONE THAT AND ADDRESSES CHOICES I MADE IN THE PAST BY TELLING MY LIFE STORY WHICH THEY KIND OF FABRICATED WITH ALL THEIR ORCHESTRATIONS AND THEN FINALLY IN THE END I GET TO SEE AND HOLD MY GIRL AFTER 30 YEARS, IT'S HIGH QUALITY BAIT AT THIS POINT, REALLY SICK WAY OF PUTTING PRESSURE ON ME!!!
STOP THE LARPING FUCKING STINKY GERMAN MUFFLE!!!
THEY FEEL SO PROUD FOR DESTROYING MY LIFE AND STILL HOPE FOR A WONDERFUL TURN AROUND BUT IT'S WAY TOO LATE, BECAUSE I CAN FEEL IT ALL SLIP AWAY OUT OF MY MIND ALL THE KNOWLEDGE GONE DOWN THE DRAIN, AND I WILL FOLLOW TO DROWN WITH IT ALONE AND IT COMPLETE MISERY!!! FAITHLESS MOTHERFUCKING LIFE!!!
>Worship the Creator, not the created.
>We can discover who God is thru the Nature that He created.
YEAH GREAT, BUT THEY TURNED MY LIFE INTO SUCH A DISASTER I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO CONTINUE TO FIGURE THIS OUT, AND MEANWHILE ALL IS LOST AND I JUST GET LITTLE SNIPPETS THAT ARE QUICKLY FORGOTTEN BECAUSE I HAVEN'T TOKEN ANY MORE NOTES EITHER SINCE SPRING BECAUSE AT THE TIME I STILL HOPED TO BE ABLE TO GO SOMEWHERE AND FIGURE IT OUT BUT IT COULD NOT BE ALLOWED BY THE HIDDEN HANDS AND MY FAMILY FOR THEY CONTINUE TO LEAVE ME IN THIS TERRORIZED HOME WHICH IS TO ME ONLY AND I SUSPECT THEY SIMPLY REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT UNTIL IT IS REALLY TOO DAMN LATE!!!
>You REALLY shouldn't mock.
I WILL CALL YOU THE 'MOCK-TROLL' WHOM WILL KEEP ACCUSING ME OF MOCKING SOMETHING WHILE MOCKING ME, SHUT THE FUCK UP AND CARRY ON!!!
>17419051
JUST A TROLL, TRYING TO BE FUNNIER THAN ME, WHILE I AM VERY SERIOUS!!!
GO AHEAD TRY DIFFERENT STRATEGIES TO RIDICULE MY POSTS AND MESSAGES, YOU TRY ANYTHING TO COUNTER ME OR TROLL ME BUT I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION THAN TO MOVE TO ANOTHER HOUSE SO I WILL BE HERE UNTIL THIS HAPPENS!!!