IF MY PARENTS, FAMILY AND HIDDEN HAND DO ALL THIS IGNORING AND LEAVING ME TO ROT FOR THE PURPOSE OF FORCING ME TO TURN TO GOD, I SIMPLY RATHER CEASE TO EXISTS IN THE FIRST PLACE FOR I WILL NEVER GIVE IN TO YOUR DAMNED AND SICK PLAN AND SEEING WHAT YOU HAVE DONE NOW MAKES ME LOSE ALL FAITH AND RELIGION EVEN THOUGH I COULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER WERE I NOT DISTRACTED FROM THE LANGUAGE CODE WHICH PROVES A FEW THINGS BUT I AM NOT EVEN INTERESTED TO KNOW ANYMORE, LIFE AS I HAVE SEEN IT MAKES NO SENSE AND CAN EASILY BE DISREGARDED ALL TOGETHER, THERE IS NOTHING AND NOBODY TO SAVE YOU AND THE WHOLE IDEA OF MERELY GROWING IS JUST RETARDED LIKE A BORING HIPPY GROWING A GARDEN, GOD IS NO MORE THAN FOOLISH HIPPY TO ME NOW!!!