I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY I AM BEING IGNORED RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO PROGRESS OR DEVELOP MYSELF AND IT HAS BEEN LIKE THIS FOR FIVE YEARS AND ALL THE WHILE I HOPED IT WOULD BE BETTER SOMEDAY, BUT IT GOT WORSE BECAUSE MY MEDICAL CONDITION IS SO DAMN PAINFUL AND MAKES MY BODY GO WILD AND RESTLESS THE ENTIRE DAY AND I JUST LAY IN BED FOR EXAMPLE AND CANNOT EVEN THINK CLEAR OR MAKE A PLAN OR GET UP AND GET THINGS DONE BECAUSE THE NERVES PLAYING UP THE WAY THEY DO MAKE ME COLLAPSE THRU MY LEGS SO I JUST NEED TO SIT OR LAY AND IT NEVER STOPS!!!
BUT MY FAMILY AND THE HIDDEN HANDS CAN ONLY EVER THINK ABOUT THEIR MYSTERY SCHOOL BECAUSE THEY ONLY EXPECT ME TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE AND THE CHOICES I MADE THAT THEY ORCHESTRATED FOR ME AND IT'S A WHOLE ANOTHER SUBJECT FOR ME BECAUSE I SUFFER GREATLY FROM A MEDICAL CONDITION AND THE PAIN FROM THAT ALONE MAKES MY LIFE IMPOSSIBLE LONG BEFORE I EVER KNEW ABOUT THIS MYSTERY SCHOOL BEING PART OF MY LIFE AS WELL!!!
FUCKING PRICKS HAVE DONE EVERYTHING IN THEIR POWER TO MAKE MY LIFE A LONG STRUGGLE AND GOT ME STUCK IN A LOOP WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE TO GET OUT OF, AND THEY HAVE NO REGARD FOR EVEN THE MOST BASIC QUALITY IN MY LIFE SO LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT ANY LUXURIES BUT I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT SOME REST IN MY BODY!!!
>maybe its not too late for (you)
IT'S WAY TOO LATE BECAUSE I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS MYSTERY SCHOOL AND IT'S LESSENS ANYMORE AND ONLY EVER WISH FOR A GOOD FEELING IN MY BODY WHICH JUST WON'T HAPPEN EVER WHERE I LIVE OR ANYWHERE SURROUNDING THIS VILLAGE BECAUSE IT HAS A VERY BAD EFFECT ON MY NERVES WHICH ARE DAMAGED AND PLAY UP TO MAKE MY ENTIRE BODY RESTLESS AND IT EVEN PLAYS UP SOME MUSCLES AND CAUSE THEM TO SHAKE AND IT MAKES BREATHING DIFFICULT MOST OF THE TIME WHICH IS REALLY ANNOYING!!!
I JUST LIVED A HELL OF LIVE FOR 40 YEARS, I FOUND OUT IT WAS MY OWN FAMILY AND A BUNCH OF HIDDEN HANDS ORGANIZING A HIDDEN SCHOOL THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE LIFE UP TO THIS VERY DAY AND THEY HAVE DELIBERATELY KEPT ME AWAY FROM LOVE SINCE I WAS A CHILD AND ALWAYS TOLD ME I AM WRONG WHILE I COULD NOT EVEN BE RIGHT YET, AND KNOW I KNOW THEY DONE THAT ON PURPOSE TO DRIVE ME INSANE AND CRAZY FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES TO FIND LOVE WHICH THEY SAY IS THE ANSWER AND IT NEVER COULD BE FURTHER FROM MY LIFE WHICH IS VOID OF LOVE!!!