I am so sorry, anon. Just by reading all that you wrote, and I am especially noting your faith, I can tell that you are a very strong individual. How? You are grieving the loss of your Father, yet you are still taking the time to pray for others. That is rare and that is amazing.
So from one Follower of Jesus to another, I praying for you and your family, I thank God for your Father's service to this country, and I pray for strength for you in the days to come.
Have a restful night, anon.