>>17626666

Anons are on some hivemind / telepathic mission to prevent me from porn and antidepressants exactly on the day I crave it the most wtf.

I'm considering getting back on my meds, been off them for 2 years and still feel hopeless. I'm too autistic and socially anxious even after months of nofap and noporn. I'm useless anyways, just gunna die alone, at least I was useful as anon. The meds at least make life bearable, I can actually talk to people without freaking out, and the porn satisfies my loneliness; I'm a simple guy with porn, nothing too open-minded anyways.

Doctors are definitely overprescribing meds though, should be used for serious cases of depression and panic attacks, not just because your dog died or you didn't get what you wanted for Christmas.

Dunno just don't have anyone to talk to about it that's knowledgeable about this kind of thing. I've tried all sorts of natural supplements too, none of it works.

>>17626758

I've been alone my whole life, I'm just different, like from another planet. Clown world always punished me for simply asking questions. Thank God for the chans. Medicine has its uses I believe. It's not really enslaving me, I get off them just fine, just go back to my shitty existence.

If you want to know how bad my anxiety / panic attacks are, imagine you are endlessly drowning, but above water.

You're pro masturbation / porn?

>>17626756

It's beyond that, my family growing up was batshit bonkers, my brain wiring is FUBAR AF from early-childhood / teenager. Earliest memory I have is of my violent alcoholic father repeatedly smashing my mother's angelic face into a wall. If anyone wants this Satanic garbage to end, I've been in queue for a while.

>>17626829

>>17626837

Appreciated. I'd like to think I'm resilient considering the circumstances, but those memories I never want to forget, it reminds me of the evils that exist in this world and is my motivation to obliterate whatever that monster is.

I felt a burst of some really positive energy, anons praying for me, ty.

>>17626911

Well I mean it's a technology, we also didn't have this level of affordability computers to use either. It was a coinflip chance of odds whether you'd even make it past infancy, and most likely be dead by ~30.

>>17626917

For sure.

>>17626934

>holding on to childhood traumas

Do you know how trauma works? Forget the color pink, good luck. My anxiety is uncontrollable, like how you crave food or water. I'm only speaking for myself, not other people.

>>17626963

Most things are just corrupted and used as a cash-cow. Doesn't change the fact that I have to fix my problem now though? Let the boat sink then? But yeah you're right in the sense that I know more than the doctors prescribing the meds, they're TOO eager to prescribe.

>>17626965

99% of the drug addicts on the streets had way worse life experiences than me, just go talk to them, they're usually open-books. I should be one of them but I have the way better addiction, the Internet.

>>17626952

Nope, makes me way more anxious, although it helped me quit cigs.