John Solomon is 100% confirmed from first Q reference to SC who is confirmed as Sara carter, co author with Solomon
You are not alone on this quest. Your situation is unique only unto you. You have many brothers here and the light will one day catch up, for now use your skill and ability to function in the dark where few can.
""It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived." - George S. Patton"