>I'm beginning to believe He never existed.
Either Jesus was a fanatic or he was the son of God.
There are many accounts of Jesus existing. The bible is a history book. Case in point:
"The Garden of Eden was the birthplace of man"
Today, scientists agree that the area between the Tigris and Euphrates is the "birthplace of civilization". It just so happens to also be the location of the Garden of Eden.
So one of the first details in the bible proves it's a historical record.