>emails from my attorney
If your attorney is corresponding with you via email regarding any sensitive or otherwise important matters then you need to find a new attorney. C'mon man.
A lot of people are going to be feeling that way with or without lost emails. World is a shit. Once the scales fall off the eyes there is no going back. Try a nice relaxing cup of herbal tea, regroup, rethink and try not to catastrophize. A relaxed mind is the first prerequisite of problem solving. Cheers.