Nothing wrong with protonmail. With dual password and no recovery email very secure, in Switzerland with privacy laws. Cool dumbasses like Scwaab the know give it back rep. no stronger encryption.
What do u mean wake up. Obviously you don't understand encryption. you can change the password and the private key will be changed forever. In addition you can delete password it. Your not getting it, you need to understand privacy law to. There's a reason they use Switzerland and Swiss bank.