Many of us has been thru the same, I lost 35 pds in the last year due to depression, but it hasn't stopped me, and it won't. You also have to understand that even anons are slow learners, more now that there are a lot of newfags and normies that like to religiously follow a lider, instead of listening the message.
I also have been called a shill, a satanist, etc… This things are more complex that we think it is, what you see might give you hope or make you lose it, the reality is that we don't know, but you have to always keep fighting for what you think is right. If you have all the evidence that you claim, then gahter it, make a better explanation with good sources, archieve it offline, if anons don't like it now, take it elsewhere to discuss it, try again later. This requires A LOT of patience, if you don't learn to stop being so anxious because things don't go the way you like them to go, the board and anons aren't the problem, you are, but that's better, because you can do something about it.
Have strenght anon, we will pray for you.