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it could be so easy, could have woken up in a nice hotel, had tasty breakfast (spirits amazed of how good stuff tasts through me), little workout with personal trainer, quick sauna, little relaxing with my doing the thing you try to make me do.
could be me interacting with you, in a loving way w/o any bs ritual or attack, could be me enjoying you, giving you hints here and there, checking out on stuff ww, trying to improve with quick result bc utmost authority.
it could all be that easy, bc I truly just have to be here (I AM), which unfortunately for you all you try to make as hard for me as possible.
isolated while being exposed? sounds like torture to me.
being manipulated into no more contact with family and former friends?
even the most normal things, like visiting barber, shopping, ordering food, meeting people randomly, you try to make sure I kind of hate you. why?
I am not like you. your attacks do not reach the level of annoyingness you seem to claim bc of the claimed effect.
many know my different ways of being are portrait in songs and movies, I enjoy being dwight e.g. and indeed my feeling recover twice the speed of a normal man.
realize that what you do does not have any effect if I´d like it to be that way. and truth is, when you go against me, it cannot work, just bc of that reason.
earlier and prolly soon I am thinking about my happy place, not much caring for what you do, just being little dissatisfied bc of the consequences for what you do. and again, as I am not like you, my happy place is not some green plaines with waterfall and such, but me amongst others thinking about owning a little farm, planning the way the cook that would also fix marmelade and stuff would plan lunch, thinking about what extra classes my apprentice could have to do and rather detailed stuff like that, thinking about how the small hut for hikers in the forrest I own would look like and where and how to set up a bushcraft spot for folks, thinking about what info to give those bushcrafting folks.
>when having two days of meat per workweek, and having fish on fridays, would tuesday be better than monday bc of less close to the weekend, bc obviously it´s eintopf on wednesdays.
do you really want me to focus on that stuff bc you try to keep me in that position?