Too many events anon. But I was bullied constantly. I channeled my anger productively bit I either over trust do not trust at all.
At the age of 16 I went to the library (no internet and no computers) to research what was going on, Why I was the great shit at tractor. After sifting through piles of books, I found one called "Pulling Your own Strings" by Wayne Dyer. This book explained everything for me, and I was OK after that for decades. Worth a read to understand human pecking order dynamics.