You don't want me to do that.
Heaven and earth will pass away before the truth of my words does.
Life is a management of conflicting goals, sentiments, and contradictions.
Most people are incapable of genuinely petty acts. Everyone acts in the pursuit of something that benefits them, protects their interests, etc. To truly act in a capacity beneath one's self or interests is outside the comprehension of most. Or, rather, why someone with such greater things they could do would take the time to act in the interest of another.
It is why you don't understand Q and think it is something to be harnessed or controlled. You think it needs you - that its purpose lay in you.
This is true, but not in the sense you are thinking. You can only do as expected. It is not possible for you to act outside the role constructed for you, or in a way that grants you authority over what comes.