Aw anon. It’s never easy. Dogs are our lives. It’s wonderful to know you made such a difference for one little beating heart and that her last thoughts were of you.
I cannot imagine heaven without them, no worries :)
>grow …process and store food
Anons would be wise to learn this , at the very least, from a book. Real live teachers are the best. Please, please do something every day regarding useful skills and working toward being more self sufficient. Adapt and you will thrive, or at the very basic level survive, but this requires a plan, something you do daily.