The only thing holding you back is fear (False Expectations Appearing Real).
If you try (and this applies to life in general) and err, you can always learn from your errors and improve. If you allow fear to hold you back and never even try, you automatically fail!
Should also have added that fear is the most toxic thing on the planet!
There are some who believe that, but I prefer to rely on myself. Relying on external factors most often leads to disappointment.
I know that sounds insular, but it is not, it is inner strength. Accepting external assistance is always a good thing; relying on it, not so much.
Ok, you are forgiven. A randomly shutting down pc is a problem.
Haven't seen this here yet, but is this number of arrivals at gitmo normal?
https://twitter.com/EfCovfefe/status/1010312327487356928