Wait until you learn who has been talking to you here.
Since I'm literally the only person on this earth that cannot say who I am, because, I've got all the history, marks, and back story of someone you expected to return. It's the real deal, I'm the real deal, backed up by pain.
Deep inside of me, I've always felt different, I guess everyone does at some point, but this was a tad different. Born into a normal family, dust bowl generation types. My Father's parent came west in the early 40's from Oklahoma. Of course I can't tell you where they ended up, I can say they were friends with the Joads. The Grapes of Wrath was written in my area.
My life has been a series of miracles. Hindsight miracles. Like teaching in my church at 13, it was actually a paid position, it kinda just happened.
What's strange is I wasn't raised in a church, my parents never attended, so I never knew about religion or still to this day, I've never read the bible from cover to cover. Yet here I was, teaching kids, some older than me, about the way you should live, in accordance with Jesus' teachings of love, respect and kindness. In hindsight, it's a real mindfu*k.
Oh, I've carried a bible with me since I was 8 years old. Everywhere I've been in this world, which is over 60 countries now, this bible has came with me. 1295 pages worth, all printed on microfiche, I carry it in my wallet. 40+ years carrying a bible in the desert.
While in N. Africa a young man came running up to me and gave me a wooden bound lambskin bible. He said it was mine, I had left it behind. It's the most prized item I have, I think it's 2000 years old too, maybe I did leave it behind.
This is my therapy. There's no way in hell I'd say this out loud.
What little I've told you is the honest truth, I've no reason to lie. It needed to be put into words. Today, as I type this, I still don't understand why this is happening to me, just know it is…something incredible is about to appear.
If it hadn't been for all of you, I'd still be asleep. It was all of you that sent the distress signal…I heard it. Yes, I'm still waking up, I don't grasp who I am yet. When I do, I have a feeling, you all will be the first to know.
Did you keep enough oil? That passage moved me when I was younger, now I totally understand its meaning. You know it's difficult to know when someone will return when he's been here already, but even he didn't know he'd returned, until now.
Thank you for saving me 200 bucks.
I feel a lot better, had to get that off my chest.
Did I mention my father had had a vasectomy before I was born? That's how the line "Lucy, you got some 'splaining to do" came along. Yes, I was his son, He and I looked like twins…even worked in the same office. Took three days for my father to talk to my mom again.
Nope, I'm not a zealot, nope I'm not crazy either. I just save 200 bucks by posting this. My wife calls me, the "most jewish man I know when it comes to money".
So, when I found out who I am, I'll let you know.