>>18824118 pn
focus was so strong on reading and study, + or whatever it is; seems anon could have missed a lot of things i might "should have" paid attention to. And emotions anon "might" "should have" felt.
never felt hopeless, no idea why.
never felt frustrated, I picked the motto "never force/ strive,"
"stay comfortable"
Was excited to learn, even when material was un-sharable - couldn't easily find like minds, even in Internet's interest groups, there were shutdowns / infiltration, shill from the beginning (found out that all that was deliberate - dampening message, shadowbanning, etc. and outright banning, taking down material - even from archives - which a few of us pretty much knew was deliberate - suspected it was, but not knowing the extent. Some figured that out more than others - it's a meta-topic; beyond the actual material itself; some / many were obviously fooled, but not everyone.)
( that's why PTB hate internet communities built around shared interest - unless they can control it; they want social groups based on local RL contacts instead; like FB - social pressure more easily applied?
PTB- government did a good job controlling info back then, but maybe not perfect. Some truth absolutely escaped control.) the secret censorship gave people the illusion they were sharing material - when behind the scenes it was being blocked - IP addresses filtrated - info block by IP address.
the censorship plus attacks were sharpdevastating; That did hurt.
Wouldn't call it 'frustrating' more like devastating.
Never gave up hope. anon was actually working, expecting my work to make a difference some day, most likely after anon was gone.
Many journalist / researchers ended up un-natural dead; so there's that too.
Never foresaw a "Q" deal;
Figured some time in the distant future; it would happen. Things would surface. Always thought it would happen, eventually- info would surface and make a difference. That's why I got up in the morning.
Didn't Q team mention the timetable for the Takeover by NWO forced their hand - to start when they did? "Now or never" kind of idea? or maybe that was Piezenick?
>>18823714 pb
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