reread all you wrote in the last bread, anon.
see it not as you, but examine it as if it were somoene else.
see how dark you are.
you blame others.
you act like life sucks.
you vocalize the down beat.
it's no wonder you're in a hole.
obviously intentions do have an effect. You climb way down into the well of dispair, as evidenced by your posts.
so you get what you ask for.
you speak of your own failure, so you get failure.