Before the Trump inauguration, the Obama administration passed a law that made anyone using a vpn subjected to warrantless FISA searches. This pissed me off so much, I was using a vpn to block ads. I got drunk and wrote a review
for an adblocker I was using on Amazon, told people about the law and basically dared the government to run a FISA search on me. At this point in time I just thought the government was incompetent and not evil. Anyways, they
started investigating me and I screwed around with them and started posting satire on the Landover Bapitist site. Think I pretended that the government turned me gay because of aliens or something like that.
I was having a good time just screwing with them when they let the air out of my tire and pinned me at a gas station when I tried to pump air. That made me real schizo because I wasn't expecting them to do anything irl. I got
irritated and wrote some Putin x Obama erotica for the glowniggers to enjoy and then I just read conspiracy theories. A couple minutes after the inauguration, I wrote in notepad that they could stop now and I invited them over
for drinks. There was something on the news about the end of a "bizarre" investigation that someone started on themselves. Then a guy came out and gave a speech addressing the person who did it. He said they weren't mad at me but
they saw something they really didn't like. He said that there was a plan to kill off 75% of the population but it had been stopped and that I should keep investigating Pizzagate. He tried to tell me that I was safe, but I didn't feel safe.
Adam Schiff and Nancy Pelosi threatened to frame me before the reading of the first articles of impeachment. This really helped me because before my paranoid delusion was being killed by random glowniggers, but this gave me
actual faces to put to the delusion. During the deadline for the FISA investigation, I put in a request through the house website to make an appointment with Adam Schiff to turn in evidence, but he ignored me. The day of the
deadline, I was trying to figure out what to do when there was a mass shooting in Florida and it was too much and I had a panic attack.
I couldn't really take what was going on and so I isolated completely during the pandemic. Too much weird shit kept happening and I decided to come out of isolation and try to get on with my life. I just don't know what to do.
I try to talk to people about my problems and instead of something like, "Anon, you're just a deluded schizo!" I get answers like, "I'm not suppose to know about that." I tried to talk about some of my problems but I don't
know how to bring it up so I just said that sometimes I feel like the FBI is watching me, I mean that's true enough but I didn't expect people I know to try and convince me that I'm a targeted individual.
I don't feel like a targeted individual, I think I might be a little entertained if I had elaborate street theatre. I haven't been able to tell anyone any of this, and it all just sounds like a paranoid delusion. I've held
this all in for nearly 8 years because I'm socially retarded. I just feel like I can't move forward like this. How do I learn how not to be socially retarded and learn to talk about my problems?