>>19219774
It sounds like you have a bad case of "what-is-itis". Happens when you walk by sight and not by faith. You are looking at what is from a place of lacking any faith. You want things to change BEFORE you believe.. but you have to believe BEFORE you see. The only solution, aside from checking out early, is to change how you think n therefore how u feel in response. Time to decide how you choose to feel, based on optimistic or pessimistic thoughts, matters to you. So you can keep on thinking the shit feeling thoughts (literally like forcing your own self to eat shit) or you can choose to think the moar optimistic, moar hopeful, better feeling thoughts (that's like allowing yourself to enjoy a great meal..) You get to pick how you want to think and therefore how u feel and therefore change your entire perception of life because 7.5 billion people aren't going to change just so u can feel better.