I take full responsibility for all my
Actions.
Following the Q phenomenon since /cbts/ lead me down a rabbit hole that peimarily confronted me with the depths of hell that humans will send others of their kind to to fulfil their twisted desires.
Somehow I truly believed that we were part of something huge, that prominent eyes were on board. That Anons were sent here as warrior souls, and that we did battle in the astral realm, saving earth from demonic enslavement.
This caused a shift in my personality. Maybe this movement hijackers some part of my brain chemistry that was changing due to me being at a certain point in my life.
The yuge changes did not come, on the contrary, the biggest thing that happened since Q started was a worldwide curtailing of baaic rights, which further inflamed my sense of injustice.
I am left jaded and with a feeling of otherness, non-belongin that is strongly negative. I always felt kind of misplaced on earth, but in my younger years I took it with stride and looked forward to the special things I might achieve.
To be honest, the only thing that would make this life bearable is someone from
A place of power and knowledge informing all of my peers what I have been a part of, what I was fighting (or imagining to fight), to explain my erratic and abmormal behavior. I fully blame myself though for letting this affect non-online interactions. It is what it is. This anon is in a very dark place, and there is no end in sight.
Anons will probably mock me or call me
A demoralization shill. Maybe I am
Too weak for the task.
Maybe I‘ve been played for a fool. I wanted to be part of something grand, be a hero in the first spiritual war of mankind. Maybe I should‘ve just strived to be a good, average person. Then again, none of the events leading up to the Q phase would lead me
To believe I am
Average. But maybe everyone thinks that.
Bottom line, if I am not a literal „chosen one“, participating with all my
Hear and soul here caused a lot of pain for me and those close to me.
I hope other Anons could use these times on this board as an impetus to achieve greatness.
Personally, I feel like a failure.
Cheers and o7 to those with their heada still up high. May your families prosper.