The path was given / shown to you. Was your choice to walk it. Even knowing [they] torture first before they kill, and the risks involved, you still bravely went head-first into the Abyss to face the Truth.
Many, out of Fear, would have joined the enemy just because of the thought of possible torture.
Patriots are a special breed. Your choice granted you powers and privileges though, congrats. Even the enemy is like… what the wtf.